Some "artist" >.>

Okay guys, so here's the deal. I got a tattoo on my 18th birthday about a few months ago. The shop I went to was called Painless Wayne's Tattoo, let me tell you that it was the worst experience I have ever had. It was my first tattoo and I was so excited and nervous. But here's what happened...
 I show up at the shop right on time, right on the dot. I sign some paper work, they didn't ask me for my id first off. But I over looked that just because I was so excited. Then my artist is running late, which really wasn't a big deal. I figured maybe 15 minutes or so would be okay with me. No, the guy was an hour and a half late. Super unprofessional. It was my birthday and I had this appointment made for weeks now, so I wasn't leaving without a tattoo. He finally shows up and asks me what I would like, so I pull up a picture on my phone of my design. He rejects that tattoo idea (I feel like his skills weren't up to par with what I wanted.) So he offers to draw up a different design, I liked his design even though it was a little too simple for my taste. It was still good. So he takes me back there and has his apprentice put the stencil on me. The gal put it on backwards -.- I have to tell my artist that it wasn't on the correct way and he had to do it himself while giving his apprentice an attitude. Again, super unprofessional. Anyways, there's more. He has two customers come into the shop wanting naval piercings. So he brings them back and pierces them right in front of me while I have this stencil on my leg. Should I add that there was another person there that was qualified to pierce them? So I had to wait even longer. Finally he asks me if the placement of my stencil is to my liking I say yes and he preps his inks and all that junk. I think I'm finally going to get a good experience. But I was so wrong.
 Here's the part that made me so upset. He begins tattooing the outline. Of corse its my first tattoo and I wasn't ready for the pain and my leg begins to twitch. (Which is completely normal) And the guy tells me I need to stop moving. I couldn't make it stop because my body was reacting to the pain. So he gives me this smart ass attitude about it. After he finishes the outline he tells me to go take a breather. I go out and show my family and my best friend who I brought with me and saw my bloody leg -.- this tattoo artist had claimed to be tattooing for over 30 years and yet he is very heavy handed. I was bleeding a lot more than any other person I have seen get tattooed. So I go back in for color he does the same thing as he did for the outline giving me an attitude and putting me in more pain than I really need to be in. He is finally finished with my tattoo. I give it a look over and I am pleased. He didn't wrap it up. He told me not to get it wet, to not put ointment on it, and not to wash it. I know for a fact that this is an open wound and that it must be washed. plus I called into a bunch of other shops to check if I should be putting anything on it and all of them told me to put a&d ointment on it. Now looking at it after it is completely healed I see so many places that he made mistakes. The outline isn't solid, the color isn't completely filled in, and I am scarred because he has a heavy hand. My skin is raised up a lot and I cannot believe he messed up this "20 minute tattoo" that took a total of 3 and a half hours to finally complete. So if you are ever in Vegas and want a good tattoo do not go to Painless Wayne's Tattoo shop on Charleston.
 

Angel Eyes

Alright guys I'm so sorry for not writing in such a long time. I've changed so much over the years and I think its too much to catch up with so I'm just gonna write as if I haven't been gone so long haha.
So I have been blessed with one year sober of self harm. Words cannot express how hard this past year has been. Trying to resist the temptation, I was in so much pain physically and mentally. But here I am one year sober and all I can say is this feeling I have is the greatest feeling. I won the battle.
But I'm just so worried about others who struggle with this issue. If you personally struggle with self harm please email me. ( leiah.morris@yahoo.com ) I would love to either help or be someone you cab talk to that understands. I'm always here.
Something that helped me was the butterfly project. If you don't know what it is I highly recommend looking into it.
And in other news its senior year for me. Its so crazy /.\ but its so exciting. But guys I gotta go to 4th period soon so ...
Love & Rockets
- L3

Freak of nature

Really now? I'm a freak? Wow. And I thought you actually cared about me a little. Man I thought that I looked amazing with my Andy Biersack makeup and I was like ready to set the world on fire with my bvb inspired look. Then I just get shut down and called a freak. Wow. Close minded people suck. They have no imagination and just ugh irritate me! Like about everything not just my sense of style but about things like gays or music or racism or idk everything! I'm just tired of this crap! Grow a pair and suck it up! Everything isn't gonna go your way sunshine! The world is filled with diversity and creativity so don't shut people down with your negativity. We wouldn't have the philosophers and rockstars or scientists we have/had if it weren't for self expression. So leave me alone! I don't take crap from people at all so just keep you mouth shut your words are like garbage! Black veil brides army for life!
-L3

Friends

Friends come and go, but man does it hurt when they leave.. I've been going through losing a couple friends. One from like a month or two ago and one from a couple weeks. Sigh, this is why I don't like really opening myself up to people. But I do it anyways >.> I'm naive in that way. This is also why I am as shy as I am. I'm always thinking people will hurt me, or I will always just lose them. I have cried so much in the past from this... I wish it'd end. I don't want to keep losing people. Ugh.. I just wish that sometimes everything with relationships would go perfectly so I wouldn't have all this stress...
- L3

Have you ever missed someone so much...?

Have you ever missed someone so much they are always the first thing on your mind? Have you ever missed someone so much that when you see a picture of them you feel sad because you know you can't see them for a long time? Have you ever missed someone so much you remember what they smell like? ( i know that one was weird but hey whatever its my blog i will say what i want to lol ) Yeah me too :/ Man I miss Chris :'( he is always there for me and now I can't see him until my birthday next month, I know it doesn't sound like a long time but it already feels like it has been a year and it hasn't been that long. Sigh, I talk and text him 24/7 but it's just not the same. It hurts not to be able to see him, my parents forbid me from seeing him. It hurts to be away from him because we are two halves of a whole. Not complete without the other. :( I guess they don't understand or something... I just really miss him alot. So much that when I talk to him I get sad because I'm not there to see him laugh or smile.. Sigh... -L3 (sad, sad, sad L3 :( )

Love

Oh jeez, someone talking about love again. Oh great. Haha trust me this isn't going to be all like "ohhhhhh I love so and so, he is soooo amazing" I promise. But something that kind of bothers me is that people throw that word around like it's nothing. Love and hate are two strong words. Love should not be used loosely, you should not say you are 'in love' after a week of knowing someone. I just hate when people say that. I love you even though we have only been together for a week and I only know your first name and your birthday. But yeah I will love you forever because we like the same pizza toppings! WAIT WHAT?! heck no! I don't get people sometimes, like seriously how much can you learn about someone in a week that makes you fall in love with them? Please explain, because I don't understand. I think love is something you develop over time, sure a week is time, but not enough. I would understand if it had been a few months but, a week? O.o I'm like flabbergasted. Ha I love using that word xD but seriously it irks me lol I keep using funny words xD ugh okay seriously. People cut it out, it's not the smartest thing to do. Because usually hose relationships that say that they are in love after a week dont last that long because they moved way too fast. Just saying. It's funny.. And kinda mean at he same time but I'm gonna say it any ways. These people say they will love eachother forever and then in a week or two they break up lol xD I guess forever means two weeks xD okay I'm done... Jk I'm not xDDDDDDD LOLOLOLOL okay now I'm done. Don't be stupid. o.o I will be watching -L3

Imperfection is beauty!

Everyone is beautiful no matter what. I know I'm being such a hypocrite, but in their own way they are beautiful. The reason why I bring this up is... well someone had said something about my appearance... and it kind of hurt me. And I'm writing this for those of you who feel the same right now, at this moment. Dress in a way that makes you feel good about yourself, put on make up if that's what makes you happy. But don't let other stupid people tell you what beauty is and how to be beautiful. Because it's a bunch of bull crap. Don't listen to them, because they are stupid people. You are beautiful, in every single way. And if you find yourself saying that you are less than beautiful, stop and take a minute to think. Am IIII saying this? Or are other people saying this about me? You have to think for yourself, and not think about what others say. Everyone's definition of beauty is different. Some people think beauty is being completely fake (ie bleach blonde hair, boob jobs, or getting all sorts of surgeries done), and some think being completely natural is the way to go. Follow YOUR definition of beauty! Not everyone else's.  I myself have trouble with this, but you just gotta get over it.
-L3

Dreamer

We all have our dreams right? Like my dad, he wanted to be a professional football player (he could have but things didn't work out), or my mom, she wanted to be a veterinarian. I used to have a dream of becoming a police officer. But you know, I've changed my mind, AGAIN. Haha but I've been thinking lately about what I really want to do. I really want to be a front woman of a band. The crowd screaming my name.. Being on stage and performing my heart out.. Having fun being a crazy rock star.. Inspiring others with my music. I know it's crazy and all, but.. I keep thinking it's possible. It's strange, because I used to think people were crazy if they thought they could actually make it big time. But this girl, her name is Michaela, inspired me. And made me feel different about my dreams.. Like I can make them come true if i really set my mind to it. She's fantastic, I just wish I were confident enough to do something like that. And not to mention I have to know how to sing, I mean I'm not that bad, but I'm no Ronnie Radke... I just hope my dream comes true :) Don't let go of your dreams :D
-L3

When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?

Okay not having the best day... and I thought to myself, you know what makes me happy other than people that I care about? BLOGGING! Hahaha xD well, I guess I'm just going to talk about random things that come to mind :)
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When you're walking somewhere and you have your headphones on and a really good hard core song comes on  do you catch yourself walking as if your all bad? I do it all the time xD Or I act like I'm the lead singer of a band and I sing it even if people are around! It's awesome :D
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Do you ever feel like something you cannot control is your fault? :/ I do it all the time... like for example, a building falls over. Its all my fault because I happened to walk by that same building earlier and I looked at it. ALL my fault right? WRONG. I hate it when I do that, because its ridiculous.
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Which is worse, failing or not trying? I think this all the time when it comes to school.. Because I hate setting myself up for failure..
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This is such a bad blog post... I need to post something more important! I need to help people somehow with my blog posts. AND I'M NOT DOING IT!
WELL! I'm going to start talking about something more important than random things I think of. So... Okay I got something. Guys this one is for you, what happened to chivalry? Seriously though, like holding the door for a lady, orrrr carrying something heavy for her, ladies first? Any of this ringing any bells? It sure doesn't look like it is because at my school like no guys do any of that. Or I just don't see it. Well I see it sometimes but not very often. Most girls like it when you do that, including me. I love having guys do that, treating me like a girl you know? Like a respectable young lady haha. Or you could just do it out of respect.
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Oh and something that really grinds my gears at school, its what happens at lunch when I'm waiting to order my lunch. So people cut their friends, which is okay with me if it's just one or two people. But what annoys the crap out of me is when guys bring their huge groups of friends. OH! AND guys just let some girls cut that they don't know just because they think they're pretty/hot. And then they just look at me and turn around like I'm not even good enough. UGHHHH! WHAT THE TOAST?! That's just rude don't you think? What makes it worse is that the people in that big group of friends that that one guy brings with him, all of his friends look at you like they won or something.. I just wanna go punch them in the face or something haha just kidding but come on don't give me that look unless you want me to slap it off for you ;) haha and when I say something about it, like I'll say "hey can you like go to the back of the line? cuz I am like really hungry." and they would either ignore me or laugh and say "RIIIIIIIGHT." WHAT THE TOAST?! ughhhhh. makes me sooooo mad.
Well that's all I got for you right now :D
-L3

MOTHER SHIP!

So, what has happened recently? Oh nothing much you know the usual...
I got grounded.
Had my heart broken. </3
Dealing with some MAJOR guy issues.
Realizing that I need to make some serious dough..
I miss my blondes :/
I need to have as much fun as possible!

Yeahh.. not too much haha. You're probably wondering, how did YOU of all people get grounded? If you weren't then too bad I'm telling you anyways. My parents found out I had a boyfriend.. yeahh.. that's why. I was grounded from my phone, computer, and my friends. MY FRIENDS!! I about went crazy. Cuz I like to go out and hang out a lot.. can you imagine how it was to be without my friends for a month?! OHHH you don't even want to know how hard it was for me. Don't even wanna know.. Yeah.. not to mention I might be moving to North Las Vegas.. >.< THAT'S WAY TOO FAR!!! UGH! I hate the fact that we're moving that far away. But my mom found this house she likes a lot.. its HUGE! But it's all the way out by Mojave High School >.> no way am I gonna be a snake.. no! Once a wildcat always a wildcat!! Pshhh heck naw, wildcats eat SNAKES FOR BREAKFAST!!! okay not literally.. but you get what I'm saying haha.
Oh and not to mention the fact I didn't go to extreme thing.. >.< ONE OF MY FAVORITE BANDS WAS THERE!! (Falling in Reverse) UGH! I am soooooo going to see them live sometime... I swear on my life. If it kills me, I WILL GET TO SEE RONNIE RADKE SING LIVE IN PERSON!! I WILL!!
-L3

Jayden Lee Morris

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Jayden Lee Morris

I'd just like to welcome the newest additon to the Morris family. We are all very excited to meet you! I thought I should let you know you are entering a very crazy family. And I think you should know the do's an don'ts so you can be sure and stay outta trouble.
Tip 1: don't argue with mom and dad, you will never win that fight so just let it go.. Trust me I would know this
Tip 2: drop any argument with christian your older brothr (he will never let it go.)
Tip 3: when mom says "leave me alone" leave her alone!
Tip 4: Don't annoy your older sister leiah (me)
Tip 5: clean up your dishes.. I nor anyone else in the house is your personal maid.
Tip 6: give mom hugs when she feels sick it makes her feel better
Tip 7: you have a large family so try to keep in touch with all of your family members because they love you and will always be there for you no matter what happens
Tip 8: stay in school mom and dad will support whatever you dedicate yourself to. For example me, I dedicated myself to band and they got my back with that decision
Tip 9: have a sense of humor, if you don't have one get one, if you don't then you will be getting your feelings hurt alot.
Tip 10: stay out of your sister leiah's stuff unless you want me to get you
Tip 11: be a good kid make your parents lives easier your brother and I have already made their lives pretty hard
Ohhh my.. Mom's going into labor as I type!! You're going to be with us very soon little bro! Well that is all I have for you right now, I love you very much Jayden.

-L3

Purple and black rainbows..

Counselors are.. pointless. I mean if your freaking crazy, you definitely need some help. Or if you're on the verge of killing yourself, I understand that you need one. But, kids? With counselors? I don't know.. I guess I have no idea what I'm talking about, but it's just something I could never understand. Apparently - never mind. I shouldn't even go there. But do I strike you as the kind of person who needs counseling?! Just wondering....
ANYWAYS, so much has been going on. Just some friend drama. Its just this girl.. Penguin socks (friend from previous blog) she has just been getting on my nerves lately. She had a crush on this guy, and she was totally full out obsessed. It freaked me out. And then come to find out she had a crush on me too! I just can't get over that.. I mean I know I'm pretty hot and all xD haha but come on we're friends and nothing more chiquita. And now she likes this new guy she DOESNT EVEN KNOW! She's talking about him like he's the light of her life and she hasn't even said one word to him! Its BOTHERING ME! She wont stop talking about it! I mean I know its normal for teenage girls to have crushes on guys, but come on! Ridiculous..
Oh man.. being a teenager sucks.. JUST KIDDING! I love being 15 :D I just wish I had a little bit more freedom. I mean I have to be home by 2:30 - 2:45 and school ends like 1:20.. not much time.. I mean I'm a good girl, I get decent grades and I stay out of trouble. I think I deserve to have time during the week to have some fun. Don't you think? I mean I'm a kid! I want to live like a kid! Hang out with friends, go out, and idk be a KID! That's all I want. Freedom. Too much to ask for? I guess so..

-L3

Superficial SNOB!

So here's the situation, at school it was holiday pajama day. And my friend participates, as usual, nd she wears these penguin long socks.. which i thought were soooo cute. Anyways not the point. So this girl lets call her.. SNOB, kay so SNOB texts this guy i know nd he shows me the text. it said something like since when were penguin socks in style lmao or sum. nd the week before SNOB calls my friend fat and ugly. What the heck? I know my friend. She was hurt by SNOB. nd i told her it didn't matter what SNOB thought. of course she didn't listen to me. So i have a few things to say. Shut up SNOB no one cares what you think, especially me. Nd no one asked what your opinion on any matter, at all. And i thought that people were against bullying, what happened to that??? STOMP OUT BULLYING?!?! What happened? Verbal bullying is the worst. I've gone through it, it sucks! Nd to see my friend going through the same thing, hurts even more. Verbal bullying doesn't leave bruises to your body, it leaves wounds on your heart. So SNOB, you know who you are, if you are reading this, i hope you realize what you are doing. and to all those who are reading this, stop bullying, you know you don't like it when you're the one being bullied. So stop it.

-L3

Ugliness

Mmm kay, so I thought that when I got into high school the bullying wouldn't be so bad.. and come to find out it gets worse. Back in middle school people would call me ugly or a bad name at least once a week. In high school lets see.. its up to four times a week. And yesterday at a marching band competition one of my fellow marching band mates called me ugly. It hurt me so much, for some reason I actually thought that maybe since marching band is for the outcasts, just maybe people would accept each other. I thought that we were kind of like a family. We accept each other, we can be ourselves, because we have each other's backs. It hurt me so much.. I don't know, one day I had decided to dress myself up. I thought I looked great, I go to school get some compliments, I'm feeling so great, on cloud nine right? Then I hear a girl from one of my classes I'm not sure who, but she had said "Oh my gosh, don't you think she's trying to hard? I mean she looks like a wanna be whore. I don't understand why she even tries." And I don't even know why I try anymore.
Why can't people just get over themselves c'mon.
I just had this long discussion with my mom about not listening to them and how they just think that they're ugly themselves.. blah blah blah stuff to help you out. The thing is is that it didn't really help me. It's not going to change the way I think about these people. I can honestly say that I hate anyone who has ever brought me down.. yeah I hate them. Sorry just being honest. I hate them because their comments and nasty names stay with me. Like when I'm done getting ready to go somewhere and I look in the mirror all the comments flood into my mind. "You're never going to be pretty" "Why try, you can't change your ugly face." "You're so over weight its disgusting" (funny because I was skinnier than the girl who said that to me, just sayen) "I feel sorry for any guy who will ever go out with you, because they'll have to deal with your looks everyday. I mean come on eww." "How can someone love you, you're so.. you. It's disgusting" Things like that.
So my mom told me to look into the mirror every morning and say "You are beautiful. You, are, beautiful." at least ten times. I'm planning on doing it, hopefully it will help me out. And also I have a new way of dealing with all these negative comments. When ever someone tells me that I'm ugly or something along those lines, I'm just going to think "Screw You!" I think it will help. I challenge you guys to do the same as me. Tell yourself that you are beautiful every morning, look at yourself in the mirror, really look at yourself, and say that you ARE beautiful.
Hopefully I will post some helpful advice and stuff like that. I hope I helped someone. I'd really appreciate it if you would leave comments.
-L3

School

Okay so I'm going into high school this year and you don't get a list till the first day of school. But they told me that I need paper, pens, a binder, and a back pack. I didn't think much of it so I told my dad and he said okay we'll get you what you need for school. No big deal right? So I went and asked my mom about the school supplies and she said we're not going to buy anything until she gets the list. I for one don't want to go to school with nothing. She said I could just use my dad's binders and use my brother's school stuff. I just think its totally unfair for me to have to use my brother's school stuff. Like I don't get to have school supplies. I mean she wont even let me get a back pack! C'mon! Frealz? I think this is just ridiculous. Its school stuff, and not even a lot! If the binder's not big enough keep the receipt and we can exchange it! Seriously! All I'm allowed to get is shoes.. and school starts on Monday. This is just so stupid.