Something I have gotten used to over the years, but still hurts every time it happens is having friends continuously flake on me. But me being the most forgiving person in the whole world lets go. The thing is that there has to be a point where you just become a door mat. I don't have many friends right now for a reason, I no longer want to be a door mat. Don't get me wrong, I can understand certain situations where plans have to be canceled.. but stringing me along saying you will be here is just wrong and I don't deserve that.
This has happened wayyyy too much.. not to mention people just walk out of my life like I don't matter. Let's just say, I don't have the greatest experiences with people and friendships. For most of my life people have just skipped out on me. I thought after some time went by that people would grow up or at least be decent... I couldn't be more wrong. Well as of now I see myself friendless.. with the exception of my roommate and boyfriend. I just don't understand what I do to deserve this crap in my life. Like did I sign up for this shit list? Because I really don't remember.
Whatever, it's life. You lose friends.. in my case you lose pretty much all of them. But I know this will make me a strong and more independent individual. So screw it. I really hope I can make more friends soon, as pathetic as that sounds.
-L3
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