Monday, June 29, 2015

Letting Go

So this has been week one of my new lifestyle choice. I have only eaten chicken twice this week, once today and once on Wednesday. I am pretty proud of myself for even making it a week. Honestly it's easy to not want it, mentally that is, but it's different when your body is telling you to eat it. Hard to explain.. but like I was saying, I am really happy with my decision. I will definitely keep you guys up to date with that if you're interested.
But I'm going on to a subject that is hard for me to talk about, losing people who are dear to me. I've lost so many it seems, they don't realize it but I see it. Friends I had in high school just never seem to stay by my side. It sounds sad, but it's the truth. My blondes that I used to post about, the trio broke up long ago. We managed to get over ourselves, but it isn't the same if you know what I mean. Friendship is like glass, once broken you can try to glue the pieces back together but it will never be the same. We hardly ever talk anymore, and one of them is leaving to go to school in Washington. Which is amazing, I am so happy for her, but at the same time I wish the three of us would just stick together. That is just a selfish notion though.
After the blondes broke up, I found a new friend. If you know me well, you know who I am talking about. We just clicked right away. Similar interests and taste, even our personalities were similar. When my family life took a turn for the worst, she and her mother took me into their home. I am eternally grateful for them, they saved me. But soon our friendship hit the rocks.. we were at each other's throats for small things. It was sad, I stuck by her though because we became sisters. She thinks that just because we disagree on a lot now that we lost each other as sisters long ago. I see why she could think that. The thing is, just because you and your sister don't get along does not mean you aren't sisters any longer. You are stuck with them for life. She will always be my sister, but she hates me. And I love her still, which sucks.
Last and certainly not least is my aunt, who I call grandma (don't ask). I haven't lost her, but I am so afraid to lose her. She just found out she has lung cancer. I was devastated when I found out. She has helped to raise me. You can probably see why losing her would be so scary to me, she is almost like a second mother. I worry about her all the time, she just started chemo therapy and radiation treatment. It is so scary to think that you might lose someone who has always been there to something like death. I know I sound really melodramatic... but can you blame me?
What I am trying to tell you guys is that you need to appreciate your friends, best friends, or sisters ect. We take these important people for granted. And once the friendship is over because of whatever reason, you will regret it. So what I want all of you to do is to call someone you love and tell them how much you love them. How much you appreciate the little things they do for you. Tell them how important they are. Even if you haven't talked in awhile, I am sure they will appreciate it.
-L3
Oh, before I go, my grandmother needs help paying her medical bills. She has a go fund me account. Please go check it out if you would like. I would greatly appreciate it if you could donate, even a dollar donation would help. :) Here is a link to her page. Thank you.

 http://www.gofundme.com/xqwq2tk

Friday, June 26, 2015

FINALLY

Carlos McKnight of Washington waves a flag in support of same-sex marriage outside the U.S. Supreme Court on Friday, June 26. <a href="http://www.cnn.com/2015/06/26/politics/supreme-court-same-sex-marriage-ruling/index.html">The Supreme Court ruled 5-4</a> Friday that states cannot ban same-sex marriage, handing gay rights advocates their biggest victory yet. See photos from states that approved same-sex marriage before the nationwide ruling:I am proud to announce to those of you who don't know, gay marriage is now legal in all 50 states. This is so wonderful, I woke up to this on my phone and was overwhelmed with joy. I am a member of the LGBT community being bisexual and all. You can see why I am so happy for everyone in the community. It's so hard to wrap my head around, not that it's now legal, but the fact that it took so long. Marriage is a simple human right, at least in my opinion.
I'm not sure what to say here, all I know is that I am so happy. I hope to see my friends from high school who are gay, go through life and find that special someone. They wont have to worry about not being able to be married. I hope to one day get an invitation to one of these weddings. Today is definitely going in the history books.
One day homophobia will be just a distant memory. At least, I hope so.
-L3
(sorry that was all over the place but.. I am just so excited.)

Wednesday, June 24, 2015

A look into my life

So here we go again with the blogging...
I am really bad at keeping up with this thing aren't I?
Oh well.. Here is a look into my life right now.
I just graduated high school, which is super awesome because I am the first in my family to graduate high school. Everyone is so proud of me, even I am. Just because it wasn't easy for me this year. So many things came up but I still did it.
I just got back from a trip to Warped Tour in Pomona, California. Which was amazing by the way, I was so happy throughout the whole trip. It sucks to come back to Vegas and deal with such horrible weather.. ugh.
I am going to Florida on the 8th next month, which I am super stoked about! I get to go see some family who I haven't seen in about a year. Not only am I excited to see my family but I am also excited to have a change of scenery. I see so many beautiful photographs of the beautiful weather in Florida. I hope i can see some dolphins when I go to the beach.
Speaking of animals, I recently decided to become a vegetarian. I have been doing some research and it seems like the best lifestyle for me personally. I'm starting off slowly though, I have a very positive feeling about this change. And I hope maybe I can help some of you become vegetarians, if you aren't into that sort of thing then please support me. I need all the help I can get.
But not all things in life are all hunky dory, I have been going through some really rough waters lately. Some days I don't even get out of bed... but after my trip to California I have had a better outlook on life. I realized that life isn't going to be beautiful, it's up to us to make it that way. I keep getting caught up in other people's problems, I need to focus on myself right now. And it is so hard for me, for some reason I just can't let go. I don't get it. I don't need to care so much, and yet I do.
I have too big of a heart. Yes that does exist, and I apparently have one. I wouldn't wish this on anyone because of how much pain it has caused me...
But life goes on.

Tuesday, October 28, 2014

Some "artist" >.>

Okay guys, so here's the deal. I got a tattoo on my 18th birthday about a few months ago. The shop I went to was called Painless Wayne's Tattoo, let me tell you that it was the worst experience I have ever had. It was my first tattoo and I was so excited and nervous. But here's what happened...
 I show up at the shop right on time, right on the dot. I sign some paper work, they didn't ask me for my id first off. But I over looked that just because I was so excited. Then my artist is running late, which really wasn't a big deal. I figured maybe 15 minutes or so would be okay with me. No, the guy was an hour and a half late. Super unprofessional. It was my birthday and I had this appointment made for weeks now, so I wasn't leaving without a tattoo. He finally shows up and asks me what I would like, so I pull up a picture on my phone of my design. He rejects that tattoo idea (I feel like his skills weren't up to par with what I wanted.) So he offers to draw up a different design, I liked his design even though it was a little too simple for my taste. It was still good. So he takes me back there and has his apprentice put the stencil on me. The gal put it on backwards -.- I have to tell my artist that it wasn't on the correct way and he had to do it himself while giving his apprentice an attitude. Again, super unprofessional. Anyways, there's more. He has two customers come into the shop wanting naval piercings. So he brings them back and pierces them right in front of me while I have this stencil on my leg. Should I add that there was another person there that was qualified to pierce them? So I had to wait even longer. Finally he asks me if the placement of my stencil is to my liking I say yes and he preps his inks and all that junk. I think I'm finally going to get a good experience. But I was so wrong.
 Here's the part that made me so upset. He begins tattooing the outline. Of corse its my first tattoo and I wasn't ready for the pain and my leg begins to twitch. (Which is completely normal) And the guy tells me I need to stop moving. I couldn't make it stop because my body was reacting to the pain. So he gives me this smart ass attitude about it. After he finishes the outline he tells me to go take a breather. I go out and show my family and my best friend who I brought with me and saw my bloody leg -.- this tattoo artist had claimed to be tattooing for over 30 years and yet he is very heavy handed. I was bleeding a lot more than any other person I have seen get tattooed. So I go back in for color he does the same thing as he did for the outline giving me an attitude and putting me in more pain than I really need to be in. He is finally finished with my tattoo. I give it a look over and I am pleased. He didn't wrap it up. He told me not to get it wet, to not put ointment on it, and not to wash it. I know for a fact that this is an open wound and that it must be washed. plus I called into a bunch of other shops to check if I should be putting anything on it and all of them told me to put a&d ointment on it. Now looking at it after it is completely healed I see so many places that he made mistakes. The outline isn't solid, the color isn't completely filled in, and I am scarred because he has a heavy hand. My skin is raised up a lot and I cannot believe he messed up this "20 minute tattoo" that took a total of 3 and a half hours to finally complete. So if you are ever in Vegas and want a good tattoo do not go to Painless Wayne's Tattoo shop on Charleston.
 

Friday, October 24, 2014

Angel Eyes

Alright guys I'm so sorry for not writing in such a long time. I've changed so much over the years and I think its too much to catch up with so I'm just gonna write as if I haven't been gone so long haha.
So I have been blessed with one year sober of self harm. Words cannot express how hard this past year has been. Trying to resist the temptation, I was in so much pain physically and mentally. But here I am one year sober and all I can say is this feeling I have is the greatest feeling. I won the battle.
But I'm just so worried about others who struggle with this issue. If you personally struggle with self harm please email me. ( leiah.morris@yahoo.com ) I would love to either help or be someone you cab talk to that understands. I'm always here.
Something that helped me was the butterfly project. If you don't know what it is I highly recommend looking into it.
And in other news its senior year for me. Its so crazy /.\ but its so exciting. But guys I gotta go to 4th period soon so ...
Love & Rockets
- L3

Friday, March 8, 2013

Freak of nature

Really now? I'm a freak? Wow. And I thought you actually cared about me a little. Man I thought that I looked amazing with my Andy Biersack makeup and I was like ready to set the world on fire with my bvb inspired look. Then I just get shut down and called a freak. Wow. Close minded people suck. They have no imagination and just ugh irritate me! Like about everything not just my sense of style but about things like gays or music or racism or idk everything! I'm just tired of this crap! Grow a pair and suck it up! Everything isn't gonna go your way sunshine! The world is filled with diversity and creativity so don't shut people down with your negativity. We wouldn't have the philosophers and rockstars or scientists we have/had if it weren't for self expression. So leave me alone! I don't take crap from people at all so just keep you mouth shut your words are like garbage! Black veil brides army for life!
-L3

Thursday, March 7, 2013

Friends

Friends come and go, but man does it hurt when they leave.. I've been going through losing a couple friends. One from like a month or two ago and one from a couple weeks. Sigh, this is why I don't like really opening myself up to people. But I do it anyways >.> I'm naive in that way. This is also why I am as shy as I am. I'm always thinking people will hurt me, or I will always just lose them. I have cried so much in the past from this... I wish it'd end. I don't want to keep losing people. Ugh.. I just wish that sometimes everything with relationships would go perfectly so I wouldn't have all this stress...
- L3

Monday, July 23, 2012

Have you ever missed someone so much...?

Have you ever missed someone so much they are always the first thing on your mind? Have you ever missed someone so much that when you see a picture of them you feel sad because you know you can't see them for a long time? Have you ever missed someone so much you remember what they smell like? ( i know that one was weird but hey whatever its my blog i will say what i want to lol ) Yeah me too :/ Man I miss Chris :'( he is always there for me and now I can't see him until my birthday next month, I know it doesn't sound like a long time but it already feels like it has been a year and it hasn't been that long. Sigh, I talk and text him 24/7 but it's just not the same. It hurts not to be able to see him, my parents forbid me from seeing him. It hurts to be away from him because we are two halves of a whole. Not complete without the other. :( I guess they don't understand or something... I just really miss him alot. So much that when I talk to him I get sad because I'm not there to see him laugh or smile.. Sigh... -L3 (sad, sad, sad L3 :( )

Sunday, July 15, 2012

Love

Oh jeez, someone talking about love again. Oh great. Haha trust me this isn't going to be all like "ohhhhhh I love so and so, he is soooo amazing" I promise. But something that kind of bothers me is that people throw that word around like it's nothing. Love and hate are two strong words. Love should not be used loosely, you should not say you are 'in love' after a week of knowing someone. I just hate when people say that. I love you even though we have only been together for a week and I only know your first name and your birthday. But yeah I will love you forever because we like the same pizza toppings! WAIT WHAT?! heck no! I don't get people sometimes, like seriously how much can you learn about someone in a week that makes you fall in love with them? Please explain, because I don't understand. I think love is something you develop over time, sure a week is time, but not enough. I would understand if it had been a few months but, a week? O.o I'm like flabbergasted. Ha I love using that word xD but seriously it irks me lol I keep using funny words xD ugh okay seriously. People cut it out, it's not the smartest thing to do. Because usually hose relationships that say that they are in love after a week dont last that long because they moved way too fast. Just saying. It's funny.. And kinda mean at he same time but I'm gonna say it any ways. These people say they will love eachother forever and then in a week or two they break up lol xD I guess forever means two weeks xD okay I'm done... Jk I'm not xDDDDDDD LOLOLOLOL okay now I'm done. Don't be stupid. o.o I will be watching -L3

Monday, May 7, 2012

Imperfection is beauty!

Everyone is beautiful no matter what. I know I'm being such a hypocrite, but in their own way they are beautiful. The reason why I bring this up is... well someone had said something about my appearance... and it kind of hurt me. And I'm writing this for those of you who feel the same right now, at this moment. Dress in a way that makes you feel good about yourself, put on make up if that's what makes you happy. But don't let other stupid people tell you what beauty is and how to be beautiful. Because it's a bunch of bull crap. Don't listen to them, because they are stupid people. You are beautiful, in every single way. And if you find yourself saying that you are less than beautiful, stop and take a minute to think. Am IIII saying this? Or are other people saying this about me? You have to think for yourself, and not think about what others say. Everyone's definition of beauty is different. Some people think beauty is being completely fake (ie bleach blonde hair, boob jobs, or getting all sorts of surgeries done), and some think being completely natural is the way to go. Follow YOUR definition of beauty! Not everyone else's.  I myself have trouble with this, but you just gotta get over it.
-L3

Thursday, April 19, 2012

Dreamer

We all have our dreams right? Like my dad, he wanted to be a professional football player (he could have but things didn't work out), or my mom, she wanted to be a veterinarian. I used to have a dream of becoming a police officer. But you know, I've changed my mind, AGAIN. Haha but I've been thinking lately about what I really want to do. I really want to be a front woman of a band. The crowd screaming my name.. Being on stage and performing my heart out.. Having fun being a crazy rock star.. Inspiring others with my music. I know it's crazy and all, but.. I keep thinking it's possible. It's strange, because I used to think people were crazy if they thought they could actually make it big time. But this girl, her name is Michaela, inspired me. And made me feel different about my dreams.. Like I can make them come true if i really set my mind to it. She's fantastic, I just wish I were confident enough to do something like that. And not to mention I have to know how to sing, I mean I'm not that bad, but I'm no Ronnie Radke... I just hope my dream comes true :) Don't let go of your dreams :D
-L3

Monday, April 16, 2012

When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?

Okay not having the best day... and I thought to myself, you know what makes me happy other than people that I care about? BLOGGING! Hahaha xD well, I guess I'm just going to talk about random things that come to mind :)
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When you're walking somewhere and you have your headphones on and a really good hard core song comes on  do you catch yourself walking as if your all bad? I do it all the time xD Or I act like I'm the lead singer of a band and I sing it even if people are around! It's awesome :D
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Do you ever feel like something you cannot control is your fault? :/ I do it all the time... like for example, a building falls over. Its all my fault because I happened to walk by that same building earlier and I looked at it. ALL my fault right? WRONG. I hate it when I do that, because its ridiculous.
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Which is worse, failing or not trying? I think this all the time when it comes to school.. Because I hate setting myself up for failure..
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This is such a bad blog post... I need to post something more important! I need to help people somehow with my blog posts. AND I'M NOT DOING IT!
WELL! I'm going to start talking about something more important than random things I think of. So... Okay I got something. Guys this one is for you, what happened to chivalry? Seriously though, like holding the door for a lady, orrrr carrying something heavy for her, ladies first? Any of this ringing any bells? It sure doesn't look like it is because at my school like no guys do any of that. Or I just don't see it. Well I see it sometimes but not very often. Most girls like it when you do that, including me. I love having guys do that, treating me like a girl you know? Like a respectable young lady haha. Or you could just do it out of respect.
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Oh and something that really grinds my gears at school, its what happens at lunch when I'm waiting to order my lunch. So people cut their friends, which is okay with me if it's just one or two people. But what annoys the crap out of me is when guys bring their huge groups of friends. OH! AND guys just let some girls cut that they don't know just because they think they're pretty/hot. And then they just look at me and turn around like I'm not even good enough. UGHHHH! WHAT THE TOAST?! That's just rude don't you think? What makes it worse is that the people in that big group of friends that that one guy brings with him, all of his friends look at you like they won or something.. I just wanna go punch them in the face or something haha just kidding but come on don't give me that look unless you want me to slap it off for you ;) haha and when I say something about it, like I'll say "hey can you like go to the back of the line? cuz I am like really hungry." and they would either ignore me or laugh and say "RIIIIIIIGHT." WHAT THE TOAST?! ughhhhh. makes me sooooo mad.
Well that's all I got for you right now :D
-L3

Monday, April 2, 2012

MOTHER SHIP!

So, what has happened recently? Oh nothing much you know the usual...
I got grounded.
Had my heart broken. </3
Dealing with some MAJOR guy issues.
Realizing that I need to make some serious dough..
I miss my blondes :/
I need to have as much fun as possible!

Yeahh.. not too much haha. You're probably wondering, how did YOU of all people get grounded? If you weren't then too bad I'm telling you anyways. My parents found out I had a boyfriend.. yeahh.. that's why. I was grounded from my phone, computer, and my friends. MY FRIENDS!! I about went crazy. Cuz I like to go out and hang out a lot.. can you imagine how it was to be without my friends for a month?! OHHH you don't even want to know how hard it was for me. Don't even wanna know.. Yeah.. not to mention I might be moving to North Las Vegas.. >.< THAT'S WAY TOO FAR!!! UGH! I hate the fact that we're moving that far away. But my mom found this house she likes a lot.. its HUGE! But it's all the way out by Mojave High School >.> no way am I gonna be a snake.. no! Once a wildcat always a wildcat!! Pshhh heck naw, wildcats eat SNAKES FOR BREAKFAST!!! okay not literally.. but you get what I'm saying haha.
Oh and not to mention the fact I didn't go to extreme thing.. >.< ONE OF MY FAVORITE BANDS WAS THERE!! (Falling in Reverse) UGH! I am soooooo going to see them live sometime... I swear on my life. If it kills me, I WILL GET TO SEE RONNIE RADKE SING LIVE IN PERSON!! I WILL!!
-L3

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Jayden Lee Morris

Wednesday, February 15, 2012


Jayden Lee Morris

I'd just like to welcome the newest additon to the Morris family. We are all very excited to meet you! I thought I should let you know you are entering a very crazy family. And I think you should know the do's an don'ts so you can be sure and stay outta trouble.
Tip 1: don't argue with mom and dad, you will never win that fight so just let it go.. Trust me I would know this
Tip 2: drop any argument with christian your older brothr (he will never let it go.)
Tip 3: when mom says "leave me alone" leave her alone!
Tip 4: Don't annoy your older sister leiah (me)
Tip 5: clean up your dishes.. I nor anyone else in the house is your personal maid.
Tip 6: give mom hugs when she feels sick it makes her feel better
Tip 7: you have a large family so try to keep in touch with all of your family members because they love you and will always be there for you no matter what happens
Tip 8: stay in school mom and dad will support whatever you dedicate yourself to. For example me, I dedicated myself to band and they got my back with that decision
Tip 9: have a sense of humor, if you don't have one get one, if you don't then you will be getting your feelings hurt alot.
Tip 10: stay out of your sister leiah's stuff unless you want me to get you
Tip 11: be a good kid make your parents lives easier your brother and I have already made their lives pretty hard
Ohhh my.. Mom's going into labor as I type!! You're going to be with us very soon little bro! Well that is all I have for you right now, I love you very much Jayden.
-L3

Friday, February 10, 2012

Purple and black rainbows..

Counselors are.. pointless. I mean if your freaking crazy, you definitely need some help. Or if you're on the verge of killing yourself, I understand that you need one. But, kids? With counselors? I don't know.. I guess I have no idea what I'm talking about, but it's just something I could never understand. Apparently - never mind. I shouldn't even go there. But do I strike you as the kind of person who needs counseling?! Just wondering....
ANYWAYS, so much has been going on. Just some friend drama. Its just this girl.. Penguin socks (friend from previous blog) she has just been getting on my nerves lately. She had a crush on this guy, and she was totally full out obsessed. It freaked me out. And then come to find out she had a crush on me too! I just can't get over that.. I mean I know I'm pretty hot and all xD haha but come on we're friends and nothing more chiquita. And now she likes this new guy she DOESNT EVEN KNOW! She's talking about him like he's the light of her life and she hasn't even said one word to him! Its BOTHERING ME! She wont stop talking about it! I mean I know its normal for teenage girls to have crushes on guys, but come on! Ridiculous..
Oh man.. being a teenager sucks.. JUST KIDDING! I love being 15 :D I just wish I had a little bit more freedom. I mean I have to be home by 2:30 - 2:45 and school ends like 1:20.. not much time.. I mean I'm a good girl, I get decent grades and I stay out of trouble. I think I deserve to have time during the week to have some fun. Don't you think? I mean I'm a kid! I want to live like a kid! Hang out with friends, go out, and idk be a KID! That's all I want. Freedom. Too much to ask for? I guess so..

-L3