Pathetic

This post is going to get a little on the downside, I'm not depressed or anything, I just thought about my friends. I have 4 friends.. maybe 5. One is my cat.
It's pretty sad. So I search the internet for friends because I have social anxiety. I know it's weird.. but it makes me feel better. I go on Omegle often, and I meet some really nice people who have alot in common with me. But I just thought about something... It is so pathetic that I have to go online to find friends. I am 18 years old, shouldn't I be going to parties or something?? I think that is the normal thing to be doing at my age.. but no little ol' me is sitting at home on my laptop talking to random strangers. It sucks so much.
I do want to go out to parties and force myself out of my comfort zone but.. I don't know where any are.. and I really don't like the idea of going alone. So I am just out of luck.
So here is how my day normally goes.
I wake up and check my phone for any notifications... yeah I have no friends so there are no new texts for the most part.
I either eat or do some yoga.
Then I might watch something on netflix or youtube.
I will look for jobs, or do a random search.
Here is where it gets good. I put on my make up and get ready to go out. But I never go anywhere, I just get my hopes up. Maybe if I am lucky I will go to the store..
I will sit on my bed for a good 20 minutes and think about life..
Then I go to my laptop and type in my search bar, Omegle.
Eat a little..
Go to sleep.
Wake up, and repeat.
That is a normal day. How sad is that? ugh.. one day I will be going to a party.. But that wont be for awhile..
Anyways guys, sorry about that I just wanted to get that out.

- L3

Self Discovery

Hello my internet friends :)
Well I just want to start out and say yes I am very bad at keeping you guys up to date.
Anyways, I just got back from Florida a few days ago, and man it was a bittersweet experience. I got to see some of my close family members, that just so happen to live far away. I missed them so much. It helped to bring me out of my sadness I was stuck in. While I was there I went to the sandy white beaches of the Gulf of Mexico, and I am seriously going to miss it. But one thing I am definitely not going to miss is that Florida humidity. You see I live in a desert, and I am used to dry heat. Definitely not used to drinking my air.
I even got into yoga along the way, let me tell you I really didn't want to do it. But my cousin pushed me to, telling me that I would feel amazing afterwards. She was so right. I have been doing it ever since.
The bitter part of the trip was leaving... I did miss my family back at home but I felt torn between families.. it really sucks.. But I will for sure go back.
Subject change; yes everyone I am still a vegetarian. I am still loving it! I have tried a few new foods, and I haven't really been too disappointed. The one thing is that I tried vegan cheese... just to clarify to everyone who doesn't know the difference between vegan and vegetarian is that vegans do not eat or use any kind of animal product. So this cheese was dairy free. I was so sad.. it was so dry. But maybe it was just that brand. I'll keep searching because I want to try the vegan lifestyle.
I want to encourage you to watch a couple of documentaries I have watched recently. They are on Netflix, so please check them out. The first is Get Vegecated (I am not for sure that is the correct way to spell it), this is about an experiment of turning average people into vegans for six weeks. Very good documentary in my opinion. And the second one is called Blackfish, which is about Orca Whales in Sea World.
I will leave you with this thought, be mindful of your needs and the needs of the earth we live on.

-L3