Monday, June 29, 2015

Letting Go

So this has been week one of my new lifestyle choice. I have only eaten chicken twice this week, once today and once on Wednesday. I am pretty proud of myself for even making it a week. Honestly it's easy to not want it, mentally that is, but it's different when your body is telling you to eat it. Hard to explain.. but like I was saying, I am really happy with my decision. I will definitely keep you guys up to date with that if you're interested.
But I'm going on to a subject that is hard for me to talk about, losing people who are dear to me. I've lost so many it seems, they don't realize it but I see it. Friends I had in high school just never seem to stay by my side. It sounds sad, but it's the truth. My blondes that I used to post about, the trio broke up long ago. We managed to get over ourselves, but it isn't the same if you know what I mean. Friendship is like glass, once broken you can try to glue the pieces back together but it will never be the same. We hardly ever talk anymore, and one of them is leaving to go to school in Washington. Which is amazing, I am so happy for her, but at the same time I wish the three of us would just stick together. That is just a selfish notion though.
After the blondes broke up, I found a new friend. If you know me well, you know who I am talking about. We just clicked right away. Similar interests and taste, even our personalities were similar. When my family life took a turn for the worst, she and her mother took me into their home. I am eternally grateful for them, they saved me. But soon our friendship hit the rocks.. we were at each other's throats for small things. It was sad, I stuck by her though because we became sisters. She thinks that just because we disagree on a lot now that we lost each other as sisters long ago. I see why she could think that. The thing is, just because you and your sister don't get along does not mean you aren't sisters any longer. You are stuck with them for life. She will always be my sister, but she hates me. And I love her still, which sucks.
Last and certainly not least is my aunt, who I call grandma (don't ask). I haven't lost her, but I am so afraid to lose her. She just found out she has lung cancer. I was devastated when I found out. She has helped to raise me. You can probably see why losing her would be so scary to me, she is almost like a second mother. I worry about her all the time, she just started chemo therapy and radiation treatment. It is so scary to think that you might lose someone who has always been there to something like death. I know I sound really melodramatic... but can you blame me?
What I am trying to tell you guys is that you need to appreciate your friends, best friends, or sisters ect. We take these important people for granted. And once the friendship is over because of whatever reason, you will regret it. So what I want all of you to do is to call someone you love and tell them how much you love them. How much you appreciate the little things they do for you. Tell them how important they are. Even if you haven't talked in awhile, I am sure they will appreciate it.
-L3
Oh, before I go, my grandmother needs help paying her medical bills. She has a go fund me account. Please go check it out if you would like. I would greatly appreciate it if you could donate, even a dollar donation would help. :) Here is a link to her page. Thank you.

 http://www.gofundme.com/xqwq2tk

Friday, June 26, 2015

FINALLY

Carlos McKnight of Washington waves a flag in support of same-sex marriage outside the U.S. Supreme Court on Friday, June 26. <a href="http://www.cnn.com/2015/06/26/politics/supreme-court-same-sex-marriage-ruling/index.html">The Supreme Court ruled 5-4</a> Friday that states cannot ban same-sex marriage, handing gay rights advocates their biggest victory yet. See photos from states that approved same-sex marriage before the nationwide ruling:I am proud to announce to those of you who don't know, gay marriage is now legal in all 50 states. This is so wonderful, I woke up to this on my phone and was overwhelmed with joy. I am a member of the LGBT community being bisexual and all. You can see why I am so happy for everyone in the community. It's so hard to wrap my head around, not that it's now legal, but the fact that it took so long. Marriage is a simple human right, at least in my opinion.
I'm not sure what to say here, all I know is that I am so happy. I hope to see my friends from high school who are gay, go through life and find that special someone. They wont have to worry about not being able to be married. I hope to one day get an invitation to one of these weddings. Today is definitely going in the history books.
One day homophobia will be just a distant memory. At least, I hope so.
-L3
(sorry that was all over the place but.. I am just so excited.)

Wednesday, June 24, 2015

A look into my life

So here we go again with the blogging...
I am really bad at keeping up with this thing aren't I?
Oh well.. Here is a look into my life right now.
I just graduated high school, which is super awesome because I am the first in my family to graduate high school. Everyone is so proud of me, even I am. Just because it wasn't easy for me this year. So many things came up but I still did it.
I just got back from a trip to Warped Tour in Pomona, California. Which was amazing by the way, I was so happy throughout the whole trip. It sucks to come back to Vegas and deal with such horrible weather.. ugh.
I am going to Florida on the 8th next month, which I am super stoked about! I get to go see some family who I haven't seen in about a year. Not only am I excited to see my family but I am also excited to have a change of scenery. I see so many beautiful photographs of the beautiful weather in Florida. I hope i can see some dolphins when I go to the beach.
Speaking of animals, I recently decided to become a vegetarian. I have been doing some research and it seems like the best lifestyle for me personally. I'm starting off slowly though, I have a very positive feeling about this change. And I hope maybe I can help some of you become vegetarians, if you aren't into that sort of thing then please support me. I need all the help I can get.
But not all things in life are all hunky dory, I have been going through some really rough waters lately. Some days I don't even get out of bed... but after my trip to California I have had a better outlook on life. I realized that life isn't going to be beautiful, it's up to us to make it that way. I keep getting caught up in other people's problems, I need to focus on myself right now. And it is so hard for me, for some reason I just can't let go. I don't get it. I don't need to care so much, and yet I do.
I have too big of a heart. Yes that does exist, and I apparently have one. I wouldn't wish this on anyone because of how much pain it has caused me...
But life goes on.