Beauty IS the Beast

One of my favorite movies just reminded me that looks aren't what matter, it's what's on the inside that counts. I always can't help but catch myself judging people on their looks, I know I would hate for others to do that to me. I feel so horrible, but everyone does it without even knowing it. People judge others on what they wear, how their hair looks, or maybe just the way you look period. I know I dress differently.. and to some people I may look ugly, but I don't care.. well I can't say that, because I do care. But I wanted people to stop being so vain, looks can't always get you what you need in life. And who cares if other people don't like you just because you look different, embrace your unique qualities. They make you who you are! Everyone is beautiful!

-L3

Listen to this playlist: BVB Forever!

OPPRESSION!

Okay, so lets start back in 6th grade, I had looked up the word "bridesmaid" and Black Veil Brides comes up on Google. So I checked out their music, I loved it! So secretly I listened to it and pretended to be into other things because I was afraid to be myself. But the Black Veil Brides taught me something, don't be afraid to be you, you are perfect the way you are. Your flaws make you even better, and I finally showed everyone the true me.. they didn't believe it was me, they thought it was just a faze or me putting on a show. It's who I am! But today I was listening to Black Veil Brides' song Ritual, and I was inspired. So I decided to put some fake stitches on my face (like Andy's the lead singer of Black Veil Brides). I thought they looked great and that they made me look pretty. I walked down stairs with my head held high and I was shot down like a bird in the sky. My mom said "What is that on your face?! It's not Halloween! Stop pretending you're goth when you're not!" and I said "But mom they can be washed off, and if you knew the meaning behind them you would be so happy that I have them on me." and she said "Leiah go wash them off, you're not going out with those!". I was so hurt when I walked to my bathroom to wash them off. Plus the stitches represent my wounds that make me myself and I was proud of them so why not put them out there for everyone to see? I just felt like I couldn't express myself at all. So I put the stitches other places that weren't on my face. But she still wasn't happy I still have them on. I think I should be able to do this don't you. I was also hurt that my own mother can't accept that this is who I am. I love to dress in black and listen to my music which is metal/post hardcore/screamo. I am proud to be different.. if that means I am a goth then so be it! I GUESS I'M GOTH!
Goth is just a label actually and so is emo, I hate to be labeled!
People who are reading this, don't ever be afraid to be yourself! If wearing dark clothing is your style WEAR IT! If you like listening to good music ROCK OUT! If you like to scream GO TO THE MOUNTAIN TOP AND SCREAM SO EVERYONE CAN HEAR YOU! If you like to write songs GO WRITE A BEAUTIFUL SYMPHONY! Don't let people tell you who/what to be! I love everyone of you who are out there! I don't know you personally but if it helps you to be yourself I accept and love you!
-L3 (and proud to be!)

Babies

I woke up this morning to phones ringing.. I didn't think much of it so I went back to sleep. Another hour later my mom said "Leiah wake up!". I opened my door and yelled "Why?!". She replied "I need to tell you something!". I decided to be funny and say "Ha, what are you pregnant?", to my suprize she yelled "YES!!". I have mixed feelings about this.. I mean I wouldn't mind having a new brother or sister, well hopefully not another little boy that's just like my little brother I have at the moment.. but my family doesn't have the money to support a baby, I mean diapers alone would be $2,ooo before they even start potty training.. not to mention clothing, formula, toys, a crib... I mean I'm not pregnant and I'm worried about this stuff. Oh man the crying and the changing of the diapers is going to fall on me the oldest when the parents are too tired to get up. Oh man.. wish me luck people, wish me luck...

-L3

Life's a storm.

Well, here in Vegas it has been storming.. I absolutely love storms! And the storm got me thinking, life is just like this, don't you think? There is always going to be problems in life that will frustrate the crap out of you (the dark clouds). And you will shed tears whether they be of love, loss, or happiness (the rain). Times where you can't seem to find the light and then something/someone changes your outlook (lightning). And then fights (for your rights, what you think/believe is right, love, and friends) which is the thunder. Yeah, this all ran through my mind when my family and I were driving home in this beautiful weather.. hmm.
But, there is going to be a down side to the weather. It's 4th of July.. fireworks and rain don't mix haha. Well not bad for a first blog post huh? Jus something to think about..

-L3